For a very long time, I’ve wanted to be able to go back to my hometown to visit, but life always seemed to hand out more to deal with. Was this the Universe trying to tell me, I wasn’t meant to go back home? Then the Pandemic hit, and now it was going to be even longer before I could even think of heading back home. I found myself “in the meantime” and needing to make use out of this time.
Instead of feeling sad and lonely, I decided to get creative, I decided to visualize what it would be like going back home, I decided to embrace myself with the memories of a better time. My memories took me on a journey throughout my life; instead of feeling stuck in the past, I found myself healing my need to visit and healing the void. I was moving forward! At this time, I was still on a journey in my memories. Why was I experiencing a different perspective?
Was it because, I’ve grown “again” in a short period of time? Was it because, I was not taking my life I live now for granted? Was I showing more appreciation for the “now”, rather than the “past”? Were my memories creating more awareness for me? I was learning, I was letting go, and I was clearing out my mind, body and soul for new experiences. The past was fading into the distant; I blew it a kiss and waved good-bye. As I just had a beautiful visit; one I will cherish forever.
I have no regrets, I have great memories, I have lessons I’ve learned from, and I have friends that are dear to my heart. Sometimes, we don’t necessarily need to go back in the physical form, but instead we can go back in our minds and move forward.
I have learned that when devastation hit with this Pandemic, my first instinct was to run “home”. I couldn’t get back to my hometown fast enough! In reality, I hadn’t been home for 14 years, so why now all of a sudden was it so important for me to go home? I’ve come to the conclusion, home is comforting. I was needing the comfort as, along with everyone else, I was nervous and a bit scared as to what this Pandemic was going to be like. We had never experienced anything like it before.
Things started to become the new normal and we were able to understand the situation much better. Everything is a learning experience.
I now know, that if given the opportunity to one day visit my hometown, I can now do it with a sense of Peace and gratitude for the town that made me who I am today.
With Good Vibes Only – Going Back Home!